Its been so long since my last update. For 6 months i kept myself in the dark, away from anyone and away from love. But i began to realise that a minute spent brooding over a certain thing, its a minute of my happiness lost. Thats when i picked myself up and was lucky enough to get to know this amazing person. I wont reveal who but you know who you are. You made me laughed and smile so much eversince i came to know you. You made me feel happy and loved again after so long of being alone. Everything went so well between us initially, but.. Okay nvm. I just dont get why when im finally beginning to smile, be happy and love again, something's bound to happen and i'll lose you to someone else. I once told you that im not sure how long i'll be able to last in my current condition, but i hope my wait is worthwhile.

It hurts me seeing ur photos with him, your conversation with and everything which has relations to ur r/s with him. And i dont get why u still hang on so tight to him despite being hurt and emotionally toyed by him. I just wanna see u happy. If you are saying that you are happy, then all i could say is stop lying. You're like me, you keep your emotions and pain derp inside so no one could see it and get affected by it. We do all these so that we could see them smile. I know how hurt u are inside and i could understand why. But sometimes, our happiness is essential. You need to give up something to gain another. You cant have everyhting you ever wanted, at least not all.

Im sticking my grounds and madw my mind that im gonna wait for you no matter how much it hurts or how long it takes, cos i know if there's anyone that could make me smile and take care of me, its you..