Well life moved on after several breakdowns pertaining to friends, family and work. nothing interesting really happened in my absence, except that im growing older by the day and i would require a longer resting time than i usually need. have no time at all to catch up with my loveable buddies - Mel, Kath, Sherv & Hidaya! im so gonna make time for us to hang out again like we always do. thanks to work, im missing you guys like crazy and longed for the laughter and joy that we would have despite our bad days.

next, bought myself a really really cool DSLR Panasonic Lumix G10! haha.. yes due to me being a camwhore freak, i needed a professional camera to take better pictures of myself! its cool to have the camera, but its not really cool when you have to pay a large sum just to get it! hmmphh.. just bought it but like i said, i have no time to actually use it as often as i would like to! i too just cut my hair. now look like a really cute boy boy, its a good thing infact. just that now, i look too young to get my cigarettes, damn! nothing much happened after that. just hoping that there'll be something interesting which will be happening soon.. oh ya! will be going to night safari for halloween and also universal studios singapore for a whacky time with my siblings.. yeaps. so looking forward to it.

now moving on to you (my special someone). it might be hard for you to gain your trust in me, maybe because of my past and my present condition. not forgetting our differences. your love journey was tough before and you're afraid of falling in love again, correct me if im wrong. im afraid of falling in love again too. but then again, when i shut my eyes - i saw you. i saw someone who made me smile and laugh just by the minor things you do. your smille lets me know that everything was going to be alright again. i was willing to make and take a chance in falling in love again, and i did. i grew to love you every single time we chat. i looked forward to seeing you online everyday. and i looked forward to knowing you better and seeing the real you. slowly i knew you well enough to be ready to start something between us. but because of trust that i have not gain, you didnt want to. i understand your current emotions and feelings, i dont blame you for it. i'll wait and i'll try to gain that trust no matter how hard it would be. and then, you were gone. you became absent from my life for several weeks, and i was crushed. i didnt want to pin hopes on us anymore, but then again, suddenly, you re-appear again. i was overwhelmed, happy and all the emotions into one. i thought to myself that finally it could work out. and then, you have to leave for Dubai due to work. eventhough you will not be there long, but every minute without you is like winter with no snow. i want you to know that my feelings for you are real and undying. im never gonna stop loving until the day you asked me to. i'll wait for you even if it means being single for a long period. meanwhile, take care of urself wherever you may be. my prayers will be for your safety and for your every happiness. i love you baby(: