It Ended In A Glimpse
through those 15 months, i would have lied if i say i didnt love you. and i knew that everything went wrong because of me. if you recalled what i said since the beginning, you wont be posting what you've posted. maybe you forgot, but i told you that im not like other guys. i dont see a girl off, i dont pick her up from school, i dont talk to her when she cries on the phone and i dont do alot of things that other guys are willing to do for you. im sick of being someone i not, i just want to be myself. you accepted and love me for being this way but i dont know why your penning down such thoughts of me in your blog. you bought new heels just to match it with a dress for only one night, i appreciate that - i really do. i've built a strong reputation outfront to what others see, and i want others to see you in that light too. but beyond the eyes of others, we can be the ugliest couple and no one will care. you've paid for my meals several times on our date, thats because i was broke at that moment. but if you could recall the amount i spent to bring you around and to make every moment spent with you a special one, i guess its priceless, despite returning you every dime you spent. i tried my hardest trying to be everything you wanted, but i guess im not. the call i made the other day was sincere and without hesitation. i meant what i said. but then i came to realise after, that i dont want to be standing in your way. i read your blog too about wanting me to move on and letting others into my life to make me smile again. why say these words when you trusted and have faith in the relationship too right. i dont blame you for saying all these, cos' i brought it upon myself. but it just gets me really sad when you said all those things in your blog. it wasnt as if i didnt try to be your everything, try to be there for you in every minute of every hour or just try to be loved. if a man admits to being human you should forgive him because he finally realised his mistakes and wants to make everything right again. but if you dont, i would understand. everyday i wake up to seeing your photos, your letters and the CHIP you gave me. its gonna be hard for me to move on from the thought of you. but im gonna try. like how i did try to be everything you need. so from now on, i need you to just smile at every minute you've spent with me. you'll find someone better than me in the near future. and i wish you happiness and all the love that the world could offer. i love you and always will
C.Wong
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