I'M STILL THAT SAME PERSON
on every 10th of the month, i will start thinking 'hey shit! the 18th is coming already!' and i will start planning for our coming anniversary. that is something that you dont know. and until now the number 18th is still a very very significant date that will always be etched in my mind. if you think that i dont remember tomorrow, you're wrong. i've been thinking about it for days, no matter how busy or occupied i am. the presence of the small one would never change how i look at you or the way i treat you neither will it change my feelings towards you. im still that same guy you first met and called ungentlemen. i still remember the smallest things you did for me. im not a changed person, but im a grown person. i understand the world better being with you. i know how much it envies you having my attention drawn to only that small one. but if you could see through this brain of mine, you would be able to see that he's not the only one there. you are there too, every second, every minute, every hour and every day of my life. i told you once that i cant be physically with you all the time, because of my tight schedule. that's because im there with you in your heart and i'll never leave. i cant promise you happiness in every day of your life. i wont give you the ocean, because it will eventually dries up. i wont give you the stars, because eventually it will burn out. i wont give you the mountains, because it will eventually crumble down. i wont give you so many things and the things that you want. but i can assure you that i will give you something that means more than anything and that is my everlasting, undying and selfless love to you. my hands is yours to hold. my love is yours to keep. you make me smile even when you are at your silliest state. you dont have to change yourself for me because i fell in love with that girl who talks so loud even when im next to you. that girl gets everyone attention with the words she says. that girl will never fail to be a part of me. im not that dream guy that every girl yearns for. im not that 'justin bieber', 'zac effron' kind of guy that you would adore. im just me. chiko by himself. i dont want to change myself to be with you. im not gonna put a mask on everytime im with you. because i knew you fell for that chiko who is stupid, annoying, irritating, but yet selfless. because i wouldnt be me without you. and i want you to know that everything happens for a reason, you're the main reason why love happens. happy 14th month girl. and i hope that you would accept the presence of that young boy because, you and him is all i have left. and i wouldnt lose one for the other. i love you girl
C.Wong
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